Need to let my emotions flow

How can i really say this? I finished a 447 page book in a total of 10 hours....thats Idk tbh ive got alot on my mind idk who reads these posts i know fan girls and guys read the ones on my music posts but what abt these? Idk ive been doing really good in my life right now. And well idk ok look here it is im really emotional right now idk what im feeling it ranges from joy to flirty to sad to depressed amd scared. I mean ive done so much wrong and as of tonight ya know i thought i had moved past it but theres still things i need to face. And i suppose i should do it head on face to face.....actually i got really nervous tonight and wanted to back out.  But idk i thought of david and samson. david committed so much wrong and yet he didnt run from his consequences. No he faced them. And i didnt it took me awhile to do tht.  But david he knew he couldve died when he went up against goliath (yes im bringing up the oldest tale told way to much) no he had faith in jah so thats what im gonna do. And samson when he told his secret that cost him his strength and he killed all those pagans and fell with them. He was happy to do it for jah and he didnt want to live or want a reward. So basically when this newest obstacle comes up where i have to sit down and talk abt the past and maybe fix things im going to do it head on. Pray to jah for strength.  And ask for patience not for the situation nut myself so i can stay calm and get thru it its going to be hard for me but im going to do it and whether it ends badly which i pray for the opposite ill still be there no matter what like i always said. But this book ive been reading the series always has my emotions running with the book but near the end while i was faceing my past i couldnt fall into the book. I had.so many other emotions going on. Joy pure joy and then heart stoping fear i hatr my past i hatr myself for the things i did.  I chose the wrong things i started relationships tht should have remained at friends and some remained as nothing. But no im an idiot. But its all positive haah i jave to keep tellong myself tht cause it gets me thru mom haveing surgery tomorrow.  Shel'l be fine and if she dies she'll be in the new system. Haha all positive. But my next post will be abt brother schotts talk tonight he gave.  It was titled "clothe yourselfs with love". Twas a wonderful talk.  Anyway im kinda wanna cry haha but ive learned to not hide.my good emotions sadness shouldnt be held in around those u love unless its to be the father or older brother who has to be the father type to the younger brother cause their dad is an erragant bi-polar jerk.  But thats life. And all we can do is go with it it never gets easier we learned to either one adapt or two give up. So id like to rant on something specific here tht has to do with me.dealing with my past.....we all fear rejection those who dont have given up. Now whether it be rejection from u opening up and saying i lile u and her saying no or to u asking for a privilege and not qualifing. We all fear it. But it comes regardless and i fear it but i welcome it if its what is meant to be . And thats it im sorry i needed to get tht out

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This is one of my fav series of books ever and they are coming out with a movie!!!!! I have problems...alot of them with who they got to play who in the movie and how they are portraying some things but it will be great none the less

Ariel Bloomer

ARIEL BLOOMER FROM ICON FOR HIRE awesome band

SHE IS MIINNNEEEE I SHALL MARRRRYY HER

^this is my fav^

Awesome girl led bands

Tongiht alive- Starlight <3

Call atlantis- past regrets, future threats <3

Courage my love- Bridges

Courage my love- Barricade

Icon for hire- Make a move <3

The dirty youth- Fight

The nearly deads- Never look back (zombie music vid)

Fit for rivals- Damage

Fit for rivals- Crash

Weeeeelllll

sooo you know how i said id show u guys my 300 something playlist of screamo and stuff????


wellll i dont think im gonna do that anytime soon hahahaha its sooo long
 buuttt heres some new songs i upload to my phone tonight if it has a "(ns)" it means not screamo

A stained glass romance- tom cruise control
Bless the fall- Rise up....rise up acoustic...promised ones
Scarlett O'hara- Lost in existence
The crimson armada- Forgive me
Confide- Such great heights
Shoot the girl first- Last breathe for a capulet
Forgive my silence- This is only the beginning
Raise the sails- John riis became one of them
Stick to your guns- Amber
Victory sweet victory- Sun and the stars (ns)
To the lions- Breathless
Periphery- Letter experiment (instrumental).....Make total destroy...Icarus lives
Sirens & Sailors- You and die...I've got a masters degree in common sense
Erra- White noise....Pattern Interrupt
Like moths to flames- Leanr your place
In fear and faith- Heavy lies the crown...Live love die....The taste of regret
Miss may i- Day by day
Palisades- Disclosure
Phoenix- Lasso (ns)

AAAMMMMMAAZZZZIINNGGGG 7-8 string bands!!!!

this is Vildhjarta-traces

personally i dislike them cause they are just idk not my style they are extremly heavy but really talented

this is After the burial- Berserker 

i got to see them live and they are ammmaazzinnggg i give them a 10 but yeah heavy vocals here after the 40 seconds

Erra- Pattern interrupt

idk if this is 8 string but they are really good

they play 7 string

and this is one of my fav songs ever as of now

VOLUMES- SERENITY

well i havent posted in a while cause apparently i have asthmatic bronchitis. its the worst thing i have ever felt and it keeps going. it started about two weeks ago i went to the docs and tht bimbo said it was just a headache. geeerrrrrr so anyway a week later my mom forced me to the e.r. and they said i had the asmy broncy and so far its still not any better....anywho i plan on my next post to be about all the songs i have on my playlist for my phone one is nothing but screamoish and has 340 songs on it now.