Warung Bebas

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Update or just my problems ;)


K. Well this will be the first post I have written tht is actually not a poem or in tht style.....But then again I am Very happy. I'm happy because someone loves me, and my darkness has subcided......for now. But other than that i have been trying to read but it seems I have to much on my hands to do it. I'm always working or playing guitar or fixing my truck or working out. At least I don't listen to books.
This is me at benching 160 now!!!!! And the thing is im benching more than anyone my age right now and I AM A VEGAN!!!!!!! hahaha..... You wanna challenge me? come on i dare you. But anyway last time i measured my biceps they were 15 inches around but that was a while ago. This is a pic of me four days ago i took I dont know why I took it still dont know why haahahaha...I'm also training for the warrior race next year.Its a 5k race thru mud and wire awesome right? Well my bestest family friends told me about it and by the time I tried to sign up it was too late. But all I want to do is beat them..ANd all I do is win..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGXzlRoNtHU  ........Click this link and you'll know what song NOT to play while I'm in a compitition cause I'll go NUTZZZ!!!! Litterally this year during football season I earned one of my nicknames CG (concussion giver) cause this song came on during a game i was like coach " I want it coach I want it I want it I want IT BADDDD AAAHHHHH!!!!" ..."K tucker go run 49 toss sweep"...Well I ran it for a Touchdown but knocked some kid bout my size off his block  tht tried to tackle me hahaha dont mess with me and football! hahaha ............But anyway it feels good to be in love.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Shadows

Whats the use in living if-
-nothing makes you happy
-theres nothing to live for?
I dont care for the paradise anymore
all i want is to serve JAH now.
But nothing nothing!
ever makes me rejoice anymore
my dark shadows are falling out of control
whats the use in asking-
-when no one wants or never even answers
-or the answers you hear are far from whats right?
Theres no use in the paradise for me
i fall deep into shadows

Monday, May 9, 2011

This Pit Of Mine

Falling
Falling deep into this pit of darkness
Of which some how my subconcieous has created
As I scratch, scream, tear, howl, and pull
This moon remains a full
Every thing I have grown
Has turned into a weedy throne
Everything I have seeked to love
I have destroyed
I mean for it not end this way
but these wounds are within my heart
I find some way to dig these wounds within my heart
and my mental wounds
deeper
deeper I fall
No matter how loud I scream
It seems as if help cannot be retrieved
But then again the help I have received
I have pushed away......
For when will be the day
That my time shall end?
""Your time will come""
(I put to qoutasionns because a freind told me this and its from a maiden song)
THIS DARKNESS WITHIN ME SEEMS TO NEVER FADE.....FOR WHOM SHALL CHOOSE TO HELP A HELPLESS BOY?

Darkness Within

"As I walk through the valley of death I fear no evil"
And all I want to be is a hero
but alas I can not
for I feel this dark part of me
it moans
it grows
and roars
from with in me
saying I want out!
It came from the deepest most part of me
Never knew this monster was here
and when i look at my self in the mirror I feel disgust
I also feel the fear
The feeling as if i try to change that I will be torn in two
by this monster that I have created
from what i dont know you tell me
for I have no clue or control of these feelings I feel anymore
the darkness seeks from my pores as I sweat
it weeps from my eyes as I cry
and it leaks from my bones within.
 

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