Update or just my problems ;)

K. Well this will be the first post I have written tht is actually not a poem or in tht style.....But then again I am Very happy. I'm happy because someone loves me, and my darkness has subcided......for now. But other than that i have been trying to read but it seems I have to much on my hands to do it. I'm always working or playing guitar or fixing my truck or working out. At least I don't...

Shadows

Whats the use in living if--nothing makes you happy-theres nothing to live for?I dont care for the paradise anymoreall i want is to serve JAH now.But nothing nothing!ever makes me rejoice anymoremy dark shadows are falling out of controlwhats the use in asking--when no one wants or never even answers-or the answers you hear are far from whats right?Theres no use in the paradise for me i fall deep into shad...

This Pit Of Mine

FallingFalling deep into this pit of darknessOf which some how my subconcieous has createdAs I scratch, scream, tear, howl, and pullThis moon remains a fullEvery thing I have grownHas turned into a weedy throneEverything I have seeked to loveI have destroyedI mean for it not end this waybut these wounds are within my heart I find some way to dig these wounds within my heartand my mental woundsdeeperdeeper I fallNo matter how loud I screamIt...

Darkness Within

"As I walk through the valley of death I fear no evil"And all I want to be is a hero but alas I can notfor I feel this dark part of meit moans it grows and roars from with in me saying I want out!It came from the deepest most part of meNever knew this monster was hereand when i look at my self in the mirror I feel disgustI also feel the fearThe feeling as if i try to change that I will be torn in twoby this...